I am keeping religiously to my diet aided by my Thinking Slimmer Slimpod this week. In the three weeks that I have been focused on a return to being somewhat virtuous, I have lost a further 12 lbs. In this time I have had a family party for the MIL and FIL's birthdays that involved a meal out and a cake buffet at my house. I ate a leek and mushroom shepherd's pie with vegetables and that was it. Not even a piece of cream cake or cheesecake passed my lips. Seeing what was left of the puddings, I thought about how I would have finished it all off without even thinking before. But I just did not want to eat it which is such a revelation. I binned a load of cake that had been sat out all day...that is unheard of for me. I would have had cake for breakfast rather than waste it...but the thought of consuming Morisson's BOGOF Frozen Cheesecakes just did not justify the calorie consumption involved.
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| 12lbs lighter. |
I do have an ulterior motive to my resolve however. I have a photoshoot for a national newspaper in London on Wednesday, that has scared me into 100% commitment! (More on this to follow!) I hope that when the pressure is off, I can still find the motivation to keep the weightloss going. I want to ease off a bit so I can enjoy the occasional takeaway or quality dessert, but I don't want to plummet down the slippery slope to gluttony.
Balance is always the thing that has been difficult for me. I'm either 100% resolve or I'm just plain greedy. I was watching the documentary about Claire from Steps and I could relate to her issues with food completely. Like me, she could lose weight if there was a purpose behind it, otherwise the lure of the naughty but nice takes control. I'm really hoping this time is different and I can find a happy balance that allows me to enjoy food but still maintain my weightloss. I think this is where the Slimpods win, as long as I want them to work they will. This is definitely my greatest long term challenge and possibly the greatest challenge I've ever faced in my life as a yo-yo dieter.
In the last 2 years my weight has tipped the scales over the 16 stone mark...I'm now 3 stone lighter, but my aim is to lose another half a stone and then maintain it, without the wild fluctuations I have experienced over and over again.
I have a terrible self-image of my body, but the whole hypnosis thing has really helped improve my confidence and self-belief. I can see a change in myself and I want to keep working on that. I'm not happy yet...but I hope I will be soon.
